Hello Class,
I will start with the exercise first which was the loving
and kindness meditation. You had to lay down and repeat the same mantra over
and over again while visualizing. It was
a weird experience mainly because at first I felt a sort of sadness because I
felt as if I was reflecting on the suffering. So I began to try vision that freedom from
suffering and I felt my sadness lift. I actually saw myself helping others in
becoming health, happy and whole. From there I felt a sense of vanity as if it
should not have been a feeling for me. I had to redirect my focus and feelings
for everyone else. It was a different experience. It left me feeling as if I
had reflected on myself and how I should be doing more. The assessment started
with a meditation on what part of me is the source of suffering.
The second aspect was
to ask myself what ready of my life is ready to grow and develop. This one
really made me look what I need to be doing and want to be doing. Also giving
me a greater insight to what could be the cause as well. This one reminded me
of a therapy session for some reason. Seemed like a counseling more than a
meditation. One thing I realize is the source of a lot of my suffering is fear. On almost every level I can think fear has
had a hold on me. I have decided to work on that fear sense I feel it to be the
biggest part of my life that brings me suffering. I think I can spiritually,
mentally, and physical flourish by finding he proper methods and tools to
conquer fear. I believe strongly in knowledge so I plan to start my reading
different books on fear and overcoming it. I also plan to speak with my spiritual
guide and possibly even a therapist about it. I thinking taking martial arts
and studying yoga more are other areas I will dive deeper into in order to help
me develop through this issue.
Thanks,
Ebony
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